More vs. Better
I left my office yesterday at 2:15.
It was a bold move considering the piles of unfinished work on my desk, the volume of e-mails beckoning for a response, and the staff watching dumbfounded as I walked away with unanswered questions still hanging in the air.
I went home, put on sneakers and ran out the door. The air was cool, the sun was shining and in no time I was gasping for breath…yes, I’m that out of shape. But, man, it felt so good.
For weeks, months really, I’ve been exhausted and irritable and straining for more time to work, more time to clean and more time to snuggle close with my boys. There’s just never enough. And the larger the deficit grows, the more my faith stumbles and my confidence shakes.
“I’m a terrible mom.” “I’m a lousy pastor.” “Clark must think I’ve lost my mind.” And so runs the ongoing parade of negativity in my mind.
But yesterday I stopped and I realized something – that moment of “stop” was the most productive time I’d had in weeks.
“Be still and know that I am God.” Psalm 46:10
We have two options – we can work more or work better. I’ll never have all the time I need to do all the things I want to do, but if I can start with things like rest, prayer, exercise and good food than all the time I spend doing everything else will be better time, productive time, present time.
It’s not about working more, it’s about working better. It’s not about needing more, it’s about needing better. It’s not even about loving more, it’s about loving better.
How do you fight the more vs. better debate? What do you need to prioritize so you can be better at the things you do?
(Oh, and as an added bonus, check out Ann Voskamp’s incredible post from yesterday!)